Dear son or daughter,
It’s remarkable how you can seem so abstract, yet so real at the same time. How you feel so close, yet still so far away. We are mere weeks away from finally meeting you and, while I am more than eager for that moment to arrive, I find I want to savor every last minute of our time alone together. It is a unique time only you and I will ever experience.
I do not have all the answers, but I promise I will never stop searching for them for you.
I am not perfect, but I will never stop trying to be perfect for you.
I will hold you to high standards in life, but I expect that you hold me to much higher ones.
I love you more than words can express, but it is a love that is not yet fully anchored. I am so eager to fall head over heels with the unique individual you are, hoping you have taken the best parts of me and your father while saving lots of room to become who you are truly meant to be.
I want you to know that you were wished for by so many. We all cannot wait to play a role in your life and are so grateful you picked us.
I imagine so many things: the first time I look into your eyes, the first time I hear your cry. The first word you say and the first time you hold my hand. I think most about the first time your father looks at you and how so immediately he will love you – how we will in that moment become a family – newly vulnerable, yet forever impenetrable.
I think about how much we will teach you and how much you will teach us.
I think about all the things you will do in this life and hope the world is good to you in return.
And while I know I cannot protect from everything, darling you are my greatest treasure and I will always respect, honor, and cherish you. You will always have somewhere to turn.
I do not know many things for certain, but I do know that I am ready to be your mother so when you are ready, I’m here waiting. As I always will be.